"Why cant i succed fer once"

it so near yet so far

juz once n i'll be so happy...ya...like thingss tt comes to mi hands alwaes gets blown away...ya...i dunno...its like i wan to do...the problem is...i do le...prob gets worst...i oso dunno wad to do next...ya...so many times...ya...maybe i go fer it once more...or not i give up...ya...i dun care...lolx...its like am i such a failure...i really dunno...

like so many things happen liao...ya...ppl oso dao mi...tryin to solve misudstdin btn mi n a group of ppl oso hard...is like things tt i did wasnt on purpose...ten i oso kena rumoured...it sux...ya...someone told mi not to care...ya...i'm tryin hard...like its harder to go back time cos time has VANISHED...yet it was easier tt time to correct other ten now...

lolx...am i tt heck care abt things...ya...wonder why oso...maybe becos i tried mi best lotta time...yet no one respond...means i talkin to invisible ppl...so i juz let things be like tt...n try find means...lolx...even if i sae dun care...actually i did care...but behind the scene way...

yupx...maybe i too NAIVE...to NEGATIVE...tt why things backtrack...oso...haha...muz cheer up...the angel in mi head told mi to cheer up...n look happy...though things are sad...ya...i'll try...

haha...had ice cream sale todae...haha...dunno la...haha...went giant at parkwae ytd...bought ;lotta stuff for icecream sales...n tis yellow bolster fer club...jade cant reach...no long springy legs...lucky i was there...or not she wud juz c the bolster like yet so near yet so far...yupx...ten had st annothy...dong sae i look like rockin chair...haha...lolx...hpmf...haha...

lolx...haha...i nid sleep...sleep...cos i'm practically stonin,sleepin in class...the human body there...the heart dunno go where...therefore k c teacher kip pickin on mi...haha...lolx...tests n tests n tests...i betta go try figure out mathx...or haha k sae bb to mi le...

i cant breathe...bb